imma gonna read goood.

In light of the fact I spent this whole week sitting around watching television (or, television downloaded onto my computer) I figured I'd put myself up to a little challenge this coming week.

Read three books in 7 days. I have no idea how/if I'm going to be able to do it, but I figure it's worth a shot. I'm thinking if I accomplish this, I'll kick it into hardcore mode and not watch tv at all. . . but damnit, I'm addicted to Community! IT'S SO AWESOME.

So, my choices aaaare--

• American Psycho by Bret Easton Ellis
• Walden by Henry David Thorough
• The Memoirs of a Woman of Pleasure (Fanny Hill) by John Cleland

I know, Fanny Hill isn't that long, but I figure I'll start easy. If this works out I'll be thrilled and try it again.

I'm really glad I've gotten into writing again. It's taken kind of a backseat the past couple of months but now it's back at the forefront of my mind and it feels. . . right. Like it's supposed to be there. I'll spare you my crisis, but I realized being an animator isn't my destiny, rather, I think I exist to tell stories. It's much more broad, but I honestly think I was so entranced at the idea of making movies I love distracted me from why I love them-- the stories they tell. As a result, I'm bitter at art. I'm bitter that I'm majoring in it and bitter that it isn't what I want it to be. I hate it right now. I don't want to draw, I don't want to look at anything that has been drawn.


Now, to put pants on and be social! Good night!

In which stupid televison makes me want to work on an unrelated story.

I love group dynamic in stories. Mostly; it is flushed out in it's full potential television, I think. I haven't seen it so well in writing, probably because of how difficult it is. Or. . . at least difficult for me. I don't know about anyone else.

I've struggled for YEARS over a story. ONE particular story. Why?

It has 7 main characters.

While there's a technical "leader" of the group, all 7 of them have huge impacts on one another; I have all the siblings of the main boys down, I have my 'villain' and his accomplices perfected. As a result, it has very little plot. Bad guy does bad things, good guys try and stop them. How awesome.

Yes, it's all well and good to have a character piece, but if that was my goal, I probably shouldn't have done it in a fantasty setting. Over the years, the story has become more about them than any important thing they're doing. They're so developed, I've even tried sticking them in a realistic world with less. . . fantasy 'noise' to deal with, but then they become incredibly uninteresting.

What is constant advice I hear? Just start it! Pound it out! Get it done!

Well. It changes about every two days. I initially came up with this story in my freshman year of highschool- I've had these boys over five years. Which I am thankful for! It's cleared away some of my teen angst and made my sad characters more desperate than obnoxious, made my cocky characters more brash than assholish, and gave my main character motivation other than being the golden boy.


























But still. It's hard to work over. There are certain things it simply can't do that I wish with all my heart could. Specifically, a romantic motivation between two of them. I want more than anything for these two to dramatically confess to one another their undying love to each other. . . but it really can't happen. It's against both of them.





Anyway. I rant about "My Boys" (because the stupid story doesn't have a title after all this time; the old one doesn't make sense since I changed some vital parts of it-- go figure) probably because I've been watching Arrested Development and Community all day.

Ohhh don't give me that look; it's summer. I'm supposed to be lazy.

I love the dynamic all of these have. Arrested Development is wonderful-- even though every single one of the kids has a different personality, and a vital peice to the dysfunctional puzzle, they have similar traits because they're family.

I love Community for a similar reason- they're not family, but each one of them has a peice and they work together in that way. This program kind of makes my heart ache in a weird way; this is what I honestly thought college was going to be like- I was going to arrive and fall into a group of rag-tag rejects and make buddys with people who were nothing like me. Of course, therein is the obvious flaw in the dynamic- there is little chance that all of these people would be hanging out together like this. Thus the commanality- their Spanish class.

But anyway. I love seeing groups together in an episode form; I think that's what I honestly always hoped my story would flow together as. In episodes.

In other news; I realize I have pracctically the same mannerisms and personality of Buster Bluth. There are really no other words to describe how awkward and pathetic I am. I'm glad I can finally sum it up properly :D

hello internet!

Stretched across the internet are probably a good 20 "real" blogs I've started and never updated; I came up with a catchy title and name- I came up with a theme (because all good blogs have themes, like 'news' or 'political commentary' or 'things I would do to that bitch in math class') and even put commas in the right goddamn places so I don't sound stupid on the internet.

But here I am, trying again. Wish me luck, world.

I am just a salseman; I'm pleased to meet you.
Can I show you around?