Nanowrimo day 8.

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Things are. . . coming along. Day 8 and I've only been averaging about 500 words the last few days. Luckily the first couple days got me far enough ahead it hasn't been a huge issue. Hoping to pound out a bit before bed tonight. As pictured above I hung out and got to my daily minimum at the Flying M in Nampa. I absolutely adore this place and it would probably make me barf if I ever looked at how much money I've spent there.

I said it before and I'll say it again: Jonah is hard to write. He's depressing. He's never in a good mood. He's helpful but he's an asshole. Having a completely character driven story is FUCKING MISERABLE when you want your character to do something or learn something but they CAN'T because that's not how they work. They're assholes. They can't. It has to come SLOWLY and. . . ugh. It's always tempting to let him slip out of character so something will happen.

Following what is apparently suit, here's a few of his songs.

"Bukowski" by Modest Mouse.

• "It seems to me that every day turns out to be a little bit more like Bukowski and yeah I know he's a pretty good read but god, who'd wanna be such an asshole?" Jonah would. Jonah would want to be such an asshole.

"Ghouls" by We Are Scientists.

• "We all recognize that I'm the problem here. Can't help but feel attacked-- what's that supposed to mean? And no I won't relax or act like it's 'no big deal'."

"Videotape" by Radiohead.

• I don't know why but I decided at some point this was his favorite song. He relates to it without it hitting so close to home as to upset him.

in early. out late.

I am not who I want to be. I probably will not ever be.

Nanowrimo day 3.

So I don't remember what I put in that first post about what I was doing to prepare but I almost guarantee I didn't do it. Pictured above was what I used for sprints last night. Didn't get a WHOLE lot done as I ended up iChatting with Miranda. Alcohol and a new pen and my already abused spiral notebook and pear vodka and whiskey and Hersheys mini cookies and cream left over from halloween. I am a cycle of bad habits.

I'm currently sitting at a bit over 8k and I worry how long it's going to last. This story is largely introspective and exploring Jonah is really depressing. He's a terrible little dude and he breaks my heart. But! Having him interact with the others is fun.

A note on editing? I'm aware once I go back over this its probably going to be cut down to about 10k. . . if that much. But this is extensively flushing out the characters and I think that's worth it.

I'll end this with a couple of songs on his playlist.

"All Along The Watchtower" by Bob Dylan.

• There is a theory that this song is about the book of Issiah, which goes along with one of Jonah's themes. The song also simply "feels" like someone running away or being in the process of running. Something urgent.

"Snow" by The Antlers.

• If I love The Antlers for anything, it's the absolutely heart breaking vocals. That's a lie. I love The Antlers for everything. The song is slow and quiet and is basically an anthem to crying in bed to abstracted metaphors of your own creation.

"The Fruit That Ate Itself" by Modest Mouse.

• One of my favorite songs ever. "Are you gonna be your own goddamn best friend?" + the fact Isaac Brock is literally yelling it at you is pretty great.